i'm sickkkkk....arghh....had tummy ache for 2 days for the past two days. or shud i say past 2 days in a row...whuteva...anyway nowi'm down wif sore throat and cough..it sucks...cz when i cough my throat hurts...waaaa!! how to attend class semangat-ly when i'm feeling terrible. ish ish...but i will still ber-semangat!
i'm now jz starting to play neopets.haha. i noe la...i'm lagging...u all prob played that years ago. wat to do..my siblings now into it...so drag me along...haha...my sis jz neomailed me..in her mail she say "i love u jeje" wahaha..."lam sei ngo"..
so anyway, gonna be taking tennis this sem....dunno if i'm able to play....jz hope for d best la...if not, i'm gonna drop it...hahah....
had a lot of things to crap jz now...but now forgotten adi...muz be the symptoms of my illness la..anywayss..enuf for today la...blehhh.....throat pain 
its now my hols...there's 5 weeks of it. oh god, wat am i gonna dooooo?? i'm starting to feel bored already. yi chang said there might be a trip down to ipoh and penang next week. let's hope it jadi la. 
i really need entertainment now. might be baking a choc cake tmr (dats how bored i am) haha...if it happens, i'll take a pic of it and figure out how to insert it here for ur viewing pleasure 
well, one week after meira left, smayl left for UK too. sigh..i did not get to see her off at the airport cz it was exams season. but i noe she noes i'll miss her 
last thursday my frens and i planned to go genting for a night. but dunno y, i was not able to sleep the whole night thru and ended up feeling not well. so d plan had to be cancelled. i'm so sorry gurls. got sick at the wrong time. i spent the next night sleepless too. but i got well on sunday adi. so nth to worry abt la. i jz feel very bad for causing the plans to be cancelled. i will do d planning for d next trip to genting kay? to make it up to u guys.
today's entry title was taken from smayl's msn nickname. haha...am feeling kinda tired now so not planning to rake my brains thinking wat title i wanna put.
as u guys wud haf guessed, my fren meira is leaving for UK. right at this moment her plane is taking off. i wish her a safe journey and hopefully she can settle in as soon as she reaches there. i'm gonna miss u lots gal. take good care of urself in nottingham!! the utmost important thing is.....keep in touch!!! *hugzz*
am feeling extremely confused right now. i realised i do not noe wat my life is about. life used to haf a meaning. haf a reason. but now its jz a white sheet of paper. on the upper side, at least saying dat is better than saying life's like a deep black hole. its a sign dat i can still be helped?? haha...dunno. life was meant to be meaningful, where i wud devote myself to succeed so that i cud help other, mainly my siblings. i had forseen how my future wud be. how it wud be happy being wif him. and how my siblings will grow up to be successful ppl. recently, things jz fell apart. nth seemed to matter anymore. everything i've ever dreamt of is a lie. no one had d same dream as i did. their dreams totally destroyed mine. everyone so important in my life regarded themselves important in their lives too. so where do i stand? all jz selfishly want their own way. where does dat leave me? is life jz a game ppl play? all these makes me wonder if i do belong to the world. stumbled upon this when i was reading my mails.
never say i love you
if u don't really care
never talk of feelings
if they aren't really there
never hold my hand
if u mean to break my heart
never say forever
if u ever plan to part
never look into my eyes
if u're telling me a lie
never say hello
if u think u'll say goodbye
never say that i'm d one
if u dream of more than me
never lock up my heart
if u don't haf d key